It isn't easy, but it is worth it...

I have a dear friend here who is going through a horrible mess with her oldest daughter. She has not spoken to her parents in years, but every now and then will contact her siblings and try to stir thing up and say that she wants to get back together with her parents, but only on her terms, and then she changes her mind and does nothing. But what she leaves behind is heartbreak for her parents, and disappointment for her siblings that they cannot be one big happy family again. Every time this happens (and it has happened a few times since I have known my friend) I wonder which if any of my children will hold a grudge against me later in life? I hope that none of them will. I think as parents we all try to do our best. We make mistakes, but we try. I love my children more than life and would do anything for each one of them. I hope in the end what they remember about me is that I love them and that I tried to be the best Mom I could. I hope that will over ride any negative feelings towards me. And, I hope and pray that I will always be able to have a relationship with each of them. I tell my kids everyday, several times a day that I love them and I hope they know that I mean that with everything I have. I would not change a thing about any of them. They are each special, unique individuals that have their own gifts to share with me and all they come in contact with. As for my friend, I hope that all will work out with her and her children and that they will be able to find a way to work through their differences and each work together to make their family one again-which is what we should all be working towards.
Well, Kara's team lost their game again last night. :( She is frustrated!
I started back to school last night. It is nice to have some adult interaction and to see that their are people my age (and older) who are still working on their degree. I am grateful that I have the means and a husband and children that support me in my educational pursuit! Thanks!